4 more weeks

I only have 4 weeks of summer left. My first year of teaching was.. Awesome to start with, and by the end of the school year, I completely understood the importance of Summer. Being cooped up in those small rooms, TRYING to teach those children became a burden and not a blessing anymore. But as the return to school looms quietly in the future, I am alreayd beginning to want to go back. OF COURSE I would rather be a teacher on summer all the time, because come on, I'm getting paid to catch up on my tv and to work out and work on my tan (which I have not done well at all.. I'm pasty!) But seriously, I'm ready for this next year's challenge. I've already started planning, in the most general form of planning (ie: making lists of what I think I want to teach and about how long it will take to teach no specifics as of yet.)

But today, I was reading my proverbs and 22:1 says a good name is more desireable than riches. And I think that by the end of the year, I didn't care anymore. My 'good' name may have been no more. I was merely going through the actions. The kids didn't want to be there and because that made my job 'sooo hard' I didn't want to be there. My GOAL for this year is to not give up. My GOAL is to keep on keepin' on throughout the entirety of the year. I CAN! I mean yes this year will be different, goodness I'm getting married in NOVEMBER! WHAT am I thinking? its the middle of the semester practically, but at least I will still be in the disillusionment part of the year. I will still be loving it even if I am a little stressed and scattered :)

BUT then I will be married! I think that will be a good thing, because like I was jsut telling Ben. He's my best friend, and I will then be getting to spend as much time as I want with him. Sure, I don't get to see my sister as much, but that's actually ok. I miss her, but like someone said, it will be good for both of our marriages.

With ALL that being said, I'm out. ITS FRIDAY! (I know I don't work right now but Fridays are STILL exciting!!)

hugs and kisses

Excited!

I'm so excited!

ALL the weddings are over, and NOW it's my turn!

It's all about me! lol

But really, I've been on a wedding super trip! But seriously.. I'm excited! Have I said that yet?

I've designed the stationary suite we'll be using.. and we've found out colors!

They changed.. last weekend. But I'M SOOO excited about the change!

I spoke with my florist and We're going to come up with some new and neat ideas.. This is going to be amazing! I've been a little blah about everything, but Now I just CANT wait!

In 4 months I will be married!

And going to ROME!

ANd getting to spend everyday with my best friend.

But I miss my sister.. I call her, but I feel bad because she's married and I don't want to take away from her 'married life' now. Whatever that means. Not that thats what she's said, its just what I think.

Anyways! I just can't wait.

AND I've started my work out regime.. here comes hulkbride! what what! actually no... thats not my goal at all, but well yeah.. its just kind of a funny image..

Ok I looked for a picture, but none of them were what I imagined, so I don't want to mess up your vision either..

That's all for today!

Wedding # 1 done..

My best friend from high school got married last weekend! It was a beautiful wedding and lots of fun! Now, I'm gearing up for my sister's wedding this weekend.

My whole family is in town for the wedding, and I brought the kids to my one bedroom apartment. Lee and D may only be two kids, but they take up a lot of room.

We had a real slumber party!! There was pizza and ice cream. We all snuggled down in blankets and pillows and watched Jurassic Park.

I'm so glad they all got to be here for the Fourth of July! IT's my 2nd favorite holiday!! I really, really, REALLY love fireworks!

We all went out to a lake, and watched two different shows and several 'private shows' as well. People were setting of fireworks all over the place. It reminded me of the old times, when everyone would come out to the house and set off fireworks! Great, great, GREAT times!!

hugs and kisses!

Been doing neat things...

I made these on Friday! It was fun!

All you need are some badly faded old shoes.. some material, scissors, modpodge and a paint brush! woohoo!!!!
photos of the wedding next!

I think they're actually really cute!!

3 Weeks

Two of best friends are getting married... and my Big sister!!!
I will be in all three of the weddings.. and I'm soooo ready to through this month... ha. I'm very excited about the weddings, and I'm sure I will tear up in all of them.. I just hope I don't trip.

But I'm done being a Bridesmaid in three weeks! woohoo!

But really the girls haven't been bad. They are all type A teachers.. and they want to do everything themselves. And as I have been stalking wedding blogs, the biggest advice I can find is: Delegate things to be done because even though it seems important now.. it won't matter the day of.. and it will most likely be done better than you could do if you are doing Everything!

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I've been creating different invitations for Ben's and mine's wedding.. I suppose I should ask him what he thinks about the invitations... Its just sometimes hard to get his honest opinion.. He's a boy... That's kind of why I like him, though. You know that whole being a boy thing. ;)

The next three weekends are going to be full of tears, cheers, heels, and tulle.

Lady of Leisure

As Ben's mom likes to put it... I'm very good at being a " Lady of Leisure."
I'm very good at filling up my days with things to do, that really aren't that important. It's kid of a special talent. I mean everything I do has a purpose, but its not actually important. Except now.. I have planned out my summer days.. they'll go a little something like this everyday.. well these are things that will be in my everyday.. not necessarily in any order at any time.. because I can..
*coffee
*read Bible
*write
*work out
*pool time
*wedding planning
*anything else I want to do
sounds good to me.

:)

Excitement!

I JUST had internet installed at home! I'm so excited for what this means for me... ok for my wedding! I am going to write more this summer. I must! I have all the time in the world now, (I mean sort of.. what amid all the weddings and wedding parties I have..) to dedicate myself to what I truly want to do.

I had a friend call me up today out of the blue... I swear I have some of the most interesting friends. I think I'm drawn to them because they get to live the lives that I only dream of living. For instance, one friend lived abroad in Costa Rica for a year. Now she lives in D.C., this summer she is going to live in San Francisco... She's also one of the kindest, most sincere and truly loveable people that I know. Another friend is pursuing her dream of becoming a doctor, and still traveling. The other day she was in Yosimite, this weekend she is in Seattle.

The friend I spoke with today is on the verge of opening her own boutique. Of personal lable clothes. She's dreamed up some edgey name, and already bought her first round of clothes, and is talking to someone about a place today. She once broke up with her boyfriend and drove to Panama City in the dead of night. I mean who does these things?

My friends are living lives out of novels, and I'm living a life from "The Rules." Which isn't bad. I'm in love and get to spend the rest of my life with someone who loves me back. And he sees the passion and fire in me. He prods me to do the things I dream of doing.. and I lie by the pool.. happy.

I guess all I'm saying is I think I'm kindling a fire to do more with myself. I've been described as dogged before. But I'm also practical and usually my fierce determination goes towards practical things.. like getting a job, saving money, paying loans.. blah blah blah.. I need something to be passionate about..

and while I'm on the subject of passion... I get to REALLY start planning my wedding! I want to meet with this lady and talk about what we can do to transform my wedding space.. I also want to make these http://http://ruffledblog.com/diy-string-wedding-chandelier/. They're pretty much AMAZING! Maye I'll post my own how to with pictures!

Maybe this is my passion.. :)